It's amazing how ignorant of things we can be. I never realized how many things happen in the background; things that we never see and take for granted.Why do I realize this now? Well, actually, I'm working at Taylor's University College. So far it's only been one week, and boy is there alot of things I found out. In one week, we (the student helpers) have done so many things I don't know where to start. We have packed and repacked pamphlets and brochures (like, thousands of it), served parents who seek counseling, packed letters, carried stuff and ran around like mad. It's not an easy job.

Today is Open Day at Taylor's. A very busy day too. Any parent who comes in just see a hall filled with people, and counsellors and student helpers. But we do many things behind the scenes. We make sure the place is kept clean. We make sure there are enough pamphlets in every booth. We make sure parents are attended, and run to find counselors and tables and chairs. We keep watch and conduct campus tours. Basically, we're on our feet the whole day. And so is the lecturers and staff.

Anyway no one will appreciate our work. Well, except those who really know what we went through. It's like this all over the world, no matter who you are and what job you hold. It's a thankless life, and at least it pays.

The weather is like hot hot hot. Every minute I'm out in the sun drains my energy. I am never good in hot weather. I'm the type of person called the 'puteri lilin' - someone who cannot stand the heat. And yet I loved the weather when I came back to Malaysia after my student exchange. Spain was really really cold and to feel the heat again after two months of constant freezing was really nice. Until now.

Ok, actually this afternoon's 'exercise' made me really hate the hot weather. I was shopping with my mom in Giant. From 10am to 3pm we were there. 5 hours! My mom filled two shopping carts full while I ran around getting ingredients for my pasta and lasagna. When we were at the register I had to unload everything in the carts to the conveyor belt and then the packaged stuff back into the carts. Haih. By myself, too, since my mom ran off to do some other stuff. Then I had to unload everything again into the car, and once back home from the car to the house. Very very tiring I tell you.

Nothing much going on. Can't believe that 2 weeks has passed since my finals were over. It feels more like 2 months. So far I've watched 30don and Stardust and went walking around Pyramid. This week I'm going to work a little. The money should be useful for my Christmas shopping. Now I better make up a list.

Ok, this is the updates over the past few days...

Thursday: Dinner at Tony Roma's @ The Curve. Half the class turned up. Later we moved on to Laundry for an after-dinner drink ;P Unfortunately I had to go home before we started drinking. Haih.

The guys

The girls

Today I finally caught Stardust!!!! Woot! It was quite funny. Hilarious at some parts. And sweet at others. Especially the parts with Capt Shakespeare, cruel pirate. Well, supposedly. You have to watch it for yourself.

Great. The last day of the finals, and this have to happen to me. Here I am, miserably sick. Unable to celebrate the end of finals in style. I have a headache that's making me dizzy. I can't seem to focus at all. I feel like retching. And.... I'm having a slight fever. This is so not cool.

I watched 30 Days of Night today. Before my sickness hit me. Sitting there, watching the screen. Thinking how dumb the characters are. How warped the timeline is (Hello, 10 days pass so suddenly, but 3 days takes forever to go through?). It was okay though. Josh Hartnett looks so cute. A little like Tom Cruise though. But really cute. As expected, not much horror. But blood and gore aplenty. But the ending...it was creepy. Bluek. I stumbled out of the cinema, dizzy.

We decided to go TGIF. Unfortunately....the place wasn't open yet. So sad. But good for my wallet though. Even a set meal is at least rm35. But it comes with appetizer, main course, and a scrumptious dessert. Doesn't matter. Tony Roma's is a few hours away. My mind is beset with the images, the taste of food. After I finished my Accounting paper with time to spare I doodled on the scrap paper. The first thing I drew was... a pastry. Oh to sink my teeth into one!

But at least the finals is over. Plenty of time to do things I want. Go on the internet. Watch movies. Play around. Driving practical. Sleep. Read. Oh, the joy~

But wait. No one is free to teman me. Nooooooooooooooooo!

Oh, the horror.

Feeling rather down these days. Haih. And it's not because of my hormones either. Usually I get depressed when the time-of-the-month-thingy arrives, but not this time. Just plain depressed. And over some stupid guy. I think it's true what people say: Love and hate comes together. This is the first time I felt so strongly for someone. I guess only one thing can cure it. Distance. Out of sight, out of mind. That's going to be easy, since college is now over. I'll probably never see him again. Well, at least now I know what those people who write in to agony columns mean about unrequited love. I used to think they were stupid for waiting for someone for years. Wait...they are stupid. Remind me never to follow their way. Pining is dumb.

The finals probably had a hand in making me emo too. The thought of not doing so well in the finals is unthinkable. I badly want those As. Not sure why, though. Maybe it's my kiasu attitude coming up again. Oh well, kiasu-ness is good, as long it's in moderation.

I am a real lazy person. Three whole days to study my Spec Math and yet I didn't. Instead I was reading some new books in my house. Simon the Coldhearted by Georgette Heyer and The Mammoth Book of Science Fiction. Not to mention I went through Blue Castle (L.M. Montgomery) again in one sitting.

So that's how I wasted Wednesday. On Thursday I went to the library. Then came back in the evening and entertained my absent brother's best friend, Timothy. These kids sure grow fast. I used to remember him as a small boy, shorter than me. Now he's taller than me. Sigh. It really makes me feel short.

Thursday night. Cram study. Rushing through the past-year papers, then updating my formula sheet. Ended up having my mom shouting at me "Why never study earlier hah?????"

Anyway now Spec Math is over. And there's one last paper left. Then freedom!!! After the last paper I'm going to do all the things I want. My driving practical, movies with my best friends, gatherings, shopping.... Oh and the class farewell party. That's not to be missed.

This is one jumbled post. If you read until here, congratulations for not losing your patience.

Another week. Another two papers down. Two left to go. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Since my last post, MSU (Mathematical Studies) and ECO (Economics) has came and went. Both were morning papers, requiring stamina, energy, and lots of groaning in order to make it in time for the papers. Being at college by 6.30am is no joke. Especially if for the past 3 nights you have been sleeping at 3am, and then on the night before the paper you try to sleep at midnight.

Anyhow, I feel very bad. I thought I could do my MSU paper. I was confident when I walked into the MPH that I would at least manage an A-grade or a high B-grade. I was still confident as I did my paper. Then, halfway through, while using my GC to complete a statistic question... the GC returned a "ERR: ARCHIVE FULL" message. I frantically went through my GC. Did I have enough memory to operate the calculator? I should have. My GC was fine...until that day. Okayyyy... this I could manage. I erased my calculator's memory (mental note: borrow Jia Yi's later to copy-back the programs), got it working again and continued on. But I wasted too much time and by the time I handed up the paper I didn't manage to finish all the questions.

Same thing happened for ECO. Lack of time, not enough studying. Came out of the MPH with a heavy heart.

Throughout the last hour for these two papers one thing happened. I kept swearing. %^*&^*(&)! In my mind, of course. Lately I seem to be doing that. Not good. I have to kill this habit of mind-swearing.

2 papers left. Specialist Mathematics and Accounting. I feel scared now. The bad experience from the last 3 papers has shaken me. I wish all this was over and done with.

Then I can really play, yeah!!!! Woot!

Ok, concentrate....2 papers left! Cannot enjoy first!

This is boring... Frankly, I dunno what I am doing... Right now I'm in the library, writing this post when I am supposed to be studying. Maths is on Thursday, Economics Tuesday, Specialist Math Friday. Somehow, all my study spirit is all gone. The sight of my Economics notes makes me feel sleepy.

Yesterday was ESL; English as Second Language. 3 hours and 10 minutes of sitting in a cramped room. The listening comprehension was tough, and the format of the extended essay has changed slightly. Please, please, SSABSA, don't play around with our papers...T_T This exam is important to us...

Anyway it's kinda boring in-between papers. I know, I know...it's good that I have plenty of time to study in-between... But frankly, ESL is over, and I've spent one month studying my math. Accounts is last, and my best subject. Econs...hm..well, I need to worry for that. And specialist math as well... aw damn... Can't do anything until my last paper is over... somebody just kill me...